What do you can it when you're stuck between depressed and empowered?
When you can see your goals but they're so many obstacles in the way? When you see how little it takes to get started but feel like you have nothing?
When the help is right there but so far away?
The in between is not a fun place to be, at least not in the beginning.
You see the long journey ahead full of obstacles, potholes, and even unpaved places.
The journey seems that it'll be a long car ride, then you remember you don't even have a bike.
So what do you do?
Start walking.
Whether it's good walking shoes or whatever you can find, start the journey.
You may find along they way that it wasn't so long at all.
You may find that it was longer than expected but you'll never know if you don't take that first step.
That first step that says "I'm walking by faith and not by sight";
That first step that says "I'll get it out the mud";
The first step that says you understand that a handout is not coming so you'll get it "the Hardaway".
That first step may lead to helping hands, challenges, physical and mental demands, investments and losses but that first step is one step closer to the goal.
So, when your legs are feeling heavy and you think the load is just too much to bare, sit down for a minute.
Evaluate what to leave and what to take. And after you've gotten a little rest and caught your breath, take the next step.
Not everyone will go, not everyone will cheer, not everyone will understand or help. It's your journey, not theirs. Embrace it. Remember the good times and the bad so when you come across the next person in the in between you can encourage them to keep stepping.
There may just be a bike, bus, or car waiting right up the road. He does provide for His purposes. Just keep stepping. Walk in his will.
Saturday, February 24, 2018
Friday, January 26, 2018
Rejection
**I wrote this out by hand last night because I had to get it out before I could go to sleep. Feedback welcome.
I sit here sleepy. You'd think that since I just got in the bed I'd be getting my beauty rest so I can tackle the next work day. However, this isn't the case just yet.
Something came to mind and I just had to get it out. DON'T LET YOUR REJECTION DISCOURAGE YOU. See, rejection may just be a form of protection. It could be a sign you're headed in the right direction or even that you need redirection. Whatever the case may be, don't let it get you down.
The past year has been a real struggle for me financially. Even with two raises, ends just seemed to barely meet. Now of course there are some things I could've given up but I refuse to just work, pay bills and die. I must live. Sometimes that means shifting some things around for the sake of my sanity. In the course of going through financial challenges, I've found that I need to leave my comfort zone. I have to tap into my skill sets and my creativity. Most importantly, I have to reach deep down inside and strike a match to light the pilot to my passion.
I know you probably think I'm just rambling - and I can do that at times - but I said all this for a reason. While looking for ways to supplement my income, I spent time on a site reviewing listings for freelance writing jobs. I created the profile and I got rejected. If I was really banking on that, my feelings would've been hurt but I realize I was there for the lesson. There were so many postings for blog writers, articles, ghostwriters. Many of these jobs paid as low as $5. For a person to get paid as low as $5 is insulting when you think of the time, talent, and energy put into these jobs. And let's not forget the fact that most people who take on these jobs will get no recognition for their work.
The whole time I was reading, I kept thinking about this blog. After I read through the posts while waiting on my profile determination, I went to Blogger to reconnect with The Blog in My Spirit. As you can see, there are only a few posts here and the site is years old. I needed that rejection. It was my redirection to go back to where my heart truly is and write about things that mean something to me. That rejection was my gentle correction. How many times have we heard someone ask why we insist on working for others when we can work for ourselves? The rejection was a projection. It helped shine light on an area of my life I had hidden, forgotten. Even with motivating moments from seeing my peers step off the boat, I never came back to the site. Tonight was my night for that spark to reignite. This time I can't let the flame go out. Whether I get paid or just have an outlet to express myself and try to help others, I'm here for it. I even found a draft of a series I started and didn't see through. This rejection is about to morph into a collection - of blog posts that is. I'm excited in my spirit and I can't let that die. My rejection lead me here. Where will your rejection lead you? Wherever it is, just let it be great.
1/25/2018 11:45PM
I sit here sleepy. You'd think that since I just got in the bed I'd be getting my beauty rest so I can tackle the next work day. However, this isn't the case just yet.
Something came to mind and I just had to get it out. DON'T LET YOUR REJECTION DISCOURAGE YOU. See, rejection may just be a form of protection. It could be a sign you're headed in the right direction or even that you need redirection. Whatever the case may be, don't let it get you down.
The past year has been a real struggle for me financially. Even with two raises, ends just seemed to barely meet. Now of course there are some things I could've given up but I refuse to just work, pay bills and die. I must live. Sometimes that means shifting some things around for the sake of my sanity. In the course of going through financial challenges, I've found that I need to leave my comfort zone. I have to tap into my skill sets and my creativity. Most importantly, I have to reach deep down inside and strike a match to light the pilot to my passion.
I know you probably think I'm just rambling - and I can do that at times - but I said all this for a reason. While looking for ways to supplement my income, I spent time on a site reviewing listings for freelance writing jobs. I created the profile and I got rejected. If I was really banking on that, my feelings would've been hurt but I realize I was there for the lesson. There were so many postings for blog writers, articles, ghostwriters. Many of these jobs paid as low as $5. For a person to get paid as low as $5 is insulting when you think of the time, talent, and energy put into these jobs. And let's not forget the fact that most people who take on these jobs will get no recognition for their work.
The whole time I was reading, I kept thinking about this blog. After I read through the posts while waiting on my profile determination, I went to Blogger to reconnect with The Blog in My Spirit. As you can see, there are only a few posts here and the site is years old. I needed that rejection. It was my redirection to go back to where my heart truly is and write about things that mean something to me. That rejection was my gentle correction. How many times have we heard someone ask why we insist on working for others when we can work for ourselves? The rejection was a projection. It helped shine light on an area of my life I had hidden, forgotten. Even with motivating moments from seeing my peers step off the boat, I never came back to the site. Tonight was my night for that spark to reignite. This time I can't let the flame go out. Whether I get paid or just have an outlet to express myself and try to help others, I'm here for it. I even found a draft of a series I started and didn't see through. This rejection is about to morph into a collection - of blog posts that is. I'm excited in my spirit and I can't let that die. My rejection lead me here. Where will your rejection lead you? Wherever it is, just let it be great.
1/25/2018 11:45PM
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